It’s time for me to be sappy, I’ve felt it coming on a lot lately and I’m sure this wont be the last of it with so many changes happening this Fall. Today I’m talking about my oldest child though, my first, my daughter, my sidekick. We definitely have lived up to the typical “love/hate” relationship that most mothers and daughters have, the “hate” coming from her all of the times she didn’t get her way or didn’t agree with our decisions. It’s ok though, it’s part of parenting and I’d rather be hated at times and know that we’ve been consistent and responsible and have made the right decisions for our daughter- to give her the best start/foundation in this crazy world.
2 years ago, we were preparing to take our first born to college, 4 hours from home. Today I sit here preparing to do this again, only so much has changed. After her freshman year we just felt that she wasn’t ready to be away, so she spent her sophomore year at home going to community college. I can’t even express how much I LOVED this past year. After having your daughter gone for a year, you appreciate so many small things- knowing where she is again and who she’s with, knowing she’ll be home each night, watching movies together, stalking facebook together, talking about boys, shopping, Starbucks, Tropical Smoothie, and most of all that secure feeling that she’s safe in her room each night while you sleep. Sure we still expected a lot from her, we still argued, she still pouted, I still lectured, but she learned how to manage her time, she learned from a few big mistakes in judgment, she learned that I’m always usually right because I’ve been there before. She got a 3.8 GPA while also working as a gymnastics instructor and then worked full-time this summer as a camp counselor, saving most of her money. I’m am proud.
I was thinking the other day, what’s different this time? Why am I so emotional about taking her back to school when we’ve done this before? But I realized that this past year was the last time she’ll really live here “full-time”. She’ll come on school breaks and I’m sure she’ll crash here while job-hunting after she graduates, but she wont be our “child” anymore, it wont be the same. She’s almost 20 and everything we’ve been through has prepared her for this second flight from the nest, to be an adult and not need us as much. Her siblings will miss her so very much. Felicity was 9 months old the first time she left and is almost 3 now. Losing Sissy will be like losing a parent to her, for sure. Ally will lose seeing her big sis everyday, playing cards. Kennedy and Reece adore her. The bottom level of this house will feel empty, no music playing, TV on, laptop humming, friends visiting, etc. Where did the time go?
So tomorrow we leave to drive 4 hours to her dorm, err I mean apartment. She IS a Junior now you know… A new major, new apartment, new friends (thank goodness lol), new start. I’m excited and happy for her, also scared and sad. Not to see your child everyday is HARD, very hard. It aches. I know she’ll continue to learn and grow, she’ll make mistakes but hopefully will be wiser, she’ll continue to make us proud and will do great things. I have no doubt.
Heading to Kindergarten 15 years ago

Now:



My fav:
And for fun, her running from the field when I finished because bugs were on her 

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